I felt a little bit down in the morning. Whenever I do that, I just want to stop and give up. But when I push through and keep going, like I did today, the darkness does dissipate. It gets better. Sitting there and ruminating about it is a quick way to make it last longer.

The day was spent mostly cleaning and playing with my wonderful kids. We went on a bike ride to the park. I think it was the longest bike ride Peter has successfully made. Except he crashed right before we got home. It might take him a while before he gets back on the bike again.

Potty training my middle child is still going quite poorly. I attached a potty alarm to him today. It went off a lot. He’s been out of diapers for five months, potty training for far longer. I don’t need advice either: I’m quite well read on the subject. I can’t get Peter to try new foods and can’t get Curtis to potty train. Because with both things, there has to be effort and willingness from them. No matter how many things I can try, I can’t change them. I do hope and pray that they will grow up and get a bit better. And I still keep trying.