I felt a little slow. I woke up after some crazy dreams a bit dazed and it set the pace for the entire day. In the past, I tended to get mad at myself when days like this occur. I could make myself so upset that I wouldn’t actually get anything done at all.

Today I accepted that it would be a slow day. The day went fine, albeit a little bit slower than normal. I completed the tasks that I wanted to get done, I spend good time playing and working with my family. And when I found myself drifting toward distraction, even for quite a long period, when I caught myself I just stopped and went and used my time better. I consciously avoided beating myself up over a very small mistake.

It doesn’t help to be hard on myself. I have weaknesses and I make mistakes, and I don’t want to excuse them. But going back and reliving those mistakes, analyzing them to the point of anger, and beating myself up over often insignificant decisions is not a good way to live. Allowing myself to be human, weakness and all, and simply trying my best right now is freeing.

I think that is the gift that Christ gave me. He created a way so that I don’t have to live in the past, harrowed up by my sins and weakness. I can live now, I can enjoy a beautiful life and a bright future.