Waterfall Canyon

I had been wanting to hike Waterfall Canyon in Ogden for a long time. Finally, I decided that on Saturday we would go. The weather was nice, and it should be early enough in the season that it wouldn’t be too crowded. But then Joe had to work a little bit, I had a baby shower to go to, and knowing that the kids would make it slow, we couldn’t find a good time to go. I decided just to go without Joe.

The boys and I embarked. I knew if we were going to make it we would have to take it slow. Although I was imagining slow walking, the boys were more interested in just getting distracted. Like playing in the sand.

sand

After awhile Mr. C had no interest in moving forward: throwing rocks was far more interesting. I put him in the carrier. We soon broke off the larger path and headed up the canyon where it was more rocky. PB shot off, and I only saw him periodically until we got to the falls. Climbing over the rocks was very fun for him, and he ended up being a great hiker.

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We made it to the falls, and it took us less time than I expected.

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The start of the way back was the hardest: it was steep and rocky and both boys were slipping and freaking out. I had to carry Mr. C again, and then we did much better. It was a lot of fun, and I would do it again, although it is nice to have Joe around to carry the toddler. (We just like him too.) But I think me and PB could hike anything.

Emotions

I’ve struggled with mental issues for a long time. Today has been a bit of a dark day. I’m just trying to keep pushing through, although I’ve considered changing about every aspect of my life. I’ve mentally thrown out everything in my life, fired myself from all my projects, told myself to stop trying.

Didn’t stick. Because I did it because I felt depressed, not because what I was doing was causing depression. I look at my life and I have no reason to be depressed, especially now. That doesn’t mean I can just wish away all the dark feelings I have.

But I can keep going. Maybe a little slower, a little more humble, but I can keep going. Ignore all the blackness that does not come from the truth of my life. Forgive myself when I am weak. And take advantage of what I do love, even if it doesn’t feel as joyful today as it always does.

I don’t understand all the emotions I have, and the more I try, the more issues I often end up with. When I stop trying, and instead look inside myself for Truth, truth that comes from Christ, the unmoving rock, then I can find peace.

I imagine my emotions at three levels, see below.

emotions

The surface emotions are out of my control in many respects. They are reactions. These are always the first emotions I feel to a situation. They are best acknowledged and ignored. For instance, I might feel angry over my toddler spilling juice all over. The best think I can do is acknowledge that I’m angry, and then choose not to act in anger.

Attitudes are directly controlled by my efforts.  So when the toddler spills juice, I ignore my initial anger. I instead choose an attitude of love. Attitudes are emotional actions, and are what I need to focus on when I do try to change my emotions.

Being is the result of my attitudes, and is the core of what I am. Being is joy if I am striving to live a good life, if I choose good attitudes. Being, joy, is a gift from God and is directly related to my relationship with him.

So I’m thinking about this, thinking about today, and how I feel a little down. That initial bad feeling is the surface emotion. Let’s ignore it. If I go down to my core being, I find a foundation of joy. No problem. My heart is where it needs to be. My attitude: well, it turns out I’m feeling a little selfish. I need to start focusing outward. I feel better. 

I hate getting knocked down by bad attitudes: but I do have complete control over them. I’m not ever going to avoid feeling bad at times: but I can focus on my foundation, focus on where my attitude needs to be, and I can be stronger.

Patience

While studying permaculture, the biggest change that I’ve found in my garden design approach is patience.

I don’t have a landscape plan for my house. I have ideas, but nothing else. My husband brings up possible problems, design ideas, and I just think, “We’ll see.”

Permaculture is all about observing. I’ve only been here a few months, most of which has been in the dead of winter. I can’t plan everything yet–I don’t know the sun angle in relation to the trees in the summer and exactly what areas get full sun or full shade. I don’t know how the irrigation water will run, what areas will be more wet or dry. I don’t know what weeds grow where, and I haven’t dug around in the soil that much.

I could guess, make a plan. I’ve done it all the time, because I don’t have the luxury of sitting on client’s work for months at a time. But with my home, where nothing is pressing, I’m content to wait and observe for a year before I start finalizing plans and ripping out grass or seed meadows. I will do some things: take away what I know I don’t want, start some cover crops, and provide play areas for my children. I’m still planting a vegetable garden. But I’m not in a hurry to order a bunch of fruit trees and start building raised beds.

What I’ve found while observing, is that the first design ideas get tossed away, modified, and mostly improved. New ideas come, and because everything is still flexible, I can incorporate them easily. Problems in the landscape aren’t horrible, because I have yet to determine what everything will be and can easily adjust. Waiting is a good thing.

 

 

Gnarly Stump Removal

We cut down the shrubs in the fall, but their ugly stumps remained above the ground all winter. I wasn’t opposed to leaving them and letting them decay on their own…but my husband (Joe) knew this was a less than ideal situation, and so we started digging. And digging some more. The stumps remained firmly rooted. I gave up and told Joe to get them out.

So one day Joe bought a long metal tool home after work. (I’m not exactly sure what to call it, or what it is actually designed for. It is simply a long, sturdy metal pole that has a sharp side and a flat side.) Joe rides his bike to work, so somehow he managed to bring a heavy, six foot long pole home while riding a bike.

stumps

Within fifteen minutes, one stump was gone, and the rest soon followed. We are left with beautiful planting beds, that have been naturally tilled by roots and have the added organic matter of many years of needle shed. I’ve already planted one with peas, lettuce, radishes and a few herbs.

planting bed

Someone Had a Birthday

happy

I love this kid. He just keeps getting cuter the older he gets. And now he’s two!

birthday

We enjoyed a visit to the train museum/mode train festival in Ogden too. Mr. C loved it. He managed to derail a train too, after falling down on top of it.
ride

Apperance

My appearance has been something I have been thinking about for a while. I stumbled across this website (which I explored but did not purchase anything). I had Curly Girl suggested to me and subsequently went out and bought and read it. I looked at two other books on clothes, and spent a lot of time pondering what I wore and how I looked.

Part of me was enthralled that I could actually study how to look good. I was a nerd in high school, and I was never quite comfortable with how I looked. To re-study fashion/style was a lot of fun, thinking about how I could actually look great if I wanted to.

But after a few weeks of thinking about it, I realized that I liked how I look. While studying style, I started to want to fix something that just wasn’t broken. I like my clothes, my hair, my make-up and ultimately had no desire to change them all.

I’m not even close to fashionable. But I also do not go around in my pajamas. I strike a nice medium: I do go around in clothes that I don’t mind dirt and spit on (as a homemaker and avid gardener, I get a lot of both). But I still feel cute and not frumpy in what I wear.

I will never fit in with my looks. Being a gawky 6’1″, with short curly hair ensures that. But I’m learning it is better to be true to myself and what I like than trying please other people.

outfit

Snapshot of the Living Room

Welcome to the living room. This is the room in our house where we spend the most amount of time. I prefer to keep it pretty simple to allow for the influx of toys, people and stuff. I love bright green and used it as the bases of most of the design.

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We have it set up withe the couches back to back, creating two separate spaces in the area. It allows for the functions we want, and also creates a fun space to jump and dive between couches. After all, I do have two small boys and the more spaces they have to keep moving the better.

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The total budget for this space is just under $1300. That includes two couches, two computer desks, shelf, two chairs, side table, wall decorations, two area rugs, and the Ficus tree.

Preschool Master List

I read a lot of kid activity blogs and other preschool related things…I decided to bring a lot of what I read and pull it together in a large category list. Here it is. Feel free to comment if you want any elaborations.

Sensory

  • dough like
  • water/liquid
  • dry goods
  • texture materials
  • smelling
  • tasting
  • hearing

Build

  • blocks, tower
  • legos
  • tracks

Fine Motor:

  • re-fill and empty
  • cutting
  • snaps/buttons
  • string
  • sewing

Gross Motor:

  • sports
  • exercise
  • movement

Matching and Categorizing

  • colors
  • shapes
  • puzzles
  • size
  • location

Art

  • collage (contact paper)
  • markers
  • crayons
  • watercolor
  • tempura paint
  • chalk
  • glue and paper
  • photography
  • cutting/paper folding
  • sculpting/constructing

Language

  • read-to
  • identify to read
  • writing letters
  • spelling words
  • constructing stories

Imaginative

  • small worlds
  • dress-up
  • mimic/pretent

Music

  • listen
  • create
  • dance

Math:

  • recognize numbers
  • count
  • arithmetic

Social Studies:

  • follow directions
  • interact with others
  • games
  • geography
  • history

Practical Life:

  • time
  • care of self
  • care of environment

Science

  • experiments
  • cooking
  • botany
  • zoology