I’ve been caught up in a horrible trap of worry and stress. I have more to do than I can do. I do like being busy, but lately I’ve been especially overwhelmed with everything. And because of it I haven’t been enjoying life at all. I’ve known I should just live now and not worry about the past and future, but I had a hard time actually doing that.

I think when I have desires to improve, I have to let them work inside of me for awhile. What starts as a desire is often not met for a while: life stays the same. Even when I try my hardest, change doesn’t happen at the speed I want. My self-control is faulty. But eventually in His timing, the Lord blesses me with change. Change is always gradual, and lasting change only happens through Christ. Lately, the Lord blessed me with a better ability to live in the moment, and by doing so my life is beautiful.

I can enjoy what I’m doing, instead of getting stressed by all the tasks to come. I’m not as distracted because I’m not as stressed. I’ve been better at putting things aside and not worrying how I’m going to get everything done, but just doing my best. I know sometimes that means things won’t get done, but if I’m prioritizing I also know the important ones will. I’m not worrying about micromanaging my whole schedule: instead I do the best I can right in this moment. All we have is right now anyway.